Little Black Butterflies

 Guess as the new semester begins, so does the revival of this pathetic little space?

Fortunately for me,  I got all the modules that I wanted. BUT my GPA dropped a little. Not a good sign. Gotta work extra extra harder now.

Thursday - Marketing.
Peeps whose sight just irks me are still here. Irritating much?

And my boyfriend just proved to me yet again that car is more important than me. I need more friends to kill time like these....

 Went missing for a really long time yet again. So much been going on around me I've hardly had the time to stop and think. Maybe that's why I'm really looking forward to my break 10april onwards. No more work or school. Just me and my break for a good whole week.

Shall stop here cause I wouldn't want to be late for work tmr! shall update again when I can stop myself from procrastinating. Although..that's not exactly the right word to use.

 I've not updated this page in a really long time. But who cares right, no one reads this anyways.

I've faith that things will move on from now towards only the better. And I hope he doesn't disappoint. Somehow though, the very same thoughts I used to have is kinda scaring me now. 

Maybe because of all the dramatic romances happening all around me, I should write a book? I've always wanted to write, precisely the point of this blog: to get me started in writing. But I just lack of faith in myself to be able to write a proper story.

Went to Charles and Keith sale today, after a year long of anticipation, only to utterly disappoint myself. Only bought 2 pairs of shoes this time round. They claim it to be bigger than the last but it's all bullshit. The AMOUNT of things are okay, but the PRICES are more or less the same as when you walk into a Charles and Keith store with the 30% sign. That is referring only to the shoes of course. The bags? Have lesser variety this time round and they are also ridiculously expensive considering a sale! It's tagged above $40 even after discount! Like 'HEELLLLOOOOOO!', you are just a Charles and Keith bag and not some MANGO, River Island, TOPSHOP, or GUESS!

Oh well, hopefully i will be able to grasp the knowledge of camera well enough soon! I wanna take loads of pictures and upload them all here! This is such a boring blog with nothing but WORDS. Mundane life is making it hard for me to blog about anything anyways!

I am very tired now. Toodles.

 so I guess this is the step I must take, phase I must go through.
Grow up and be strong.

I'm done, so done. I guess...

thn.. why do i still wanna keep his t-shirt.

 This part of the song's lyrics kinda portrays what I'm really feeling. truth be told. No matter what happens, you're still a part of me.

"But until now I've always been afraid
 That you would never come around
 And still I wanna put this out

 You say you got the most respect for me but
 Sometimes I feel you're not deserved of me
 And still you're in my heart
 But you're the only one

 And yes, there are time when I hate you
 But I don't complain
 'cause I've been afraid that
 You would walk away"

 And this is the part I'd never have the guts to say.

 "I don't wanna be without you baby
 I don't want a broken heart
 Don't wanna take a breath without you baby
 I don't wanna play that part
 I know that I love you
But just let me say
I don't wanna love you in no kinda way"

I hate myself for not having the guts to talk to you, afraid that you'd not listen, we'll argue, you'll walk away. tell me what to do, please.